Another (almost) year gone by

This blog has taken a backseat to so many other avenues of internet communication - early last year Facebook became my connection to the outside world and to friends from way back.
Here's the nutshell verson of this past year - picking up from the last entry.
August took me back to school. Instead of being in a regular classroom, I worked straight from the computer lab. I worked with every student in the school except band students - over 300 5th, 6th and 7th graders each week. It was very stressful at times, but God put a wonderful friend in there to work with me. Heather and I became very close and I have to say, she is probably the best friend I have ever had - ever!
The fall brought an engagement for Alex and Jennifer. It seems that Al's trip to Africa was a real turning point for him. God really worked on him. Also, Amanda and Andy found out she was expecting - in May. We were thrilled at the idea of meeting our first grandchild.
A shocker in another area of my life - my darling Billie Jo, who died in the motorcycle accident in July seemed to be fading from others' memories. Her husband Jim was already dating, seriously. I really didn't know how to handle it. I miss Bil so much, I love Jim and Hannah and want them to be happy - but gee whiz, could he have waiting a little while longer. But, I suppose everyone is different. It just hurt so much - for Bil.
Over the holidays, we spent time with the family - nothing really out of the ordinary. The holidays are always a humbling time for me - but this year it was down right depressing. Bil is gone - Jim is moving on - my friends seem far away but most of all my God seems far away. Although, looking back, I know He was carrying me - at the time I felt as if I was floating in outer space with no tether. Actually, I still feel that way.
After the holidays, we had quite a few snow days for which I was grateful. Basically, I just wanted to stay home and not have to go anywhere. I felt safe at home knowing I didn't have to face the outside world. It was comfortable - it still is.
We again went to Resurrection with our youth group - I don't remember much about the services - my heart just wasn't there.
Spring came and went - instead of going somewhere on spring break we opted to have new hardwood floors installed in our living area and to purchase much needed new furniture. I do enjoy it - another reason to stay home.
May was an eventful month - May 1st was Alex and Jennifer's wedding day. It was a beautiful day and a wonderful wedding. They were married at our farm which made it very special. They are truly a lovely young couple. After a honeymoon to the Florida Keys, they settled into thier house as husband and wife. Jennifer is such a wonderful addition to our family. The wedding was a small, private affair with a limited guest list but then two weeks later they had a reception for the entire family and some friends.
On May 9th - Mother's Day - May 12th- my birthday and on May 13th Oliver was born. School was out at the end of the month and here we are in June.
June brought another wedding - Jim married Robin at a private ceremony in his front yard. Hannah was very excited and I have to admit Robin has made a wonderful difference in their lives. I photographed the wedding - the whole time missing Billie Jo more and more.
Bil was my dear friend - if her death is going to be this hard for me - what will I do when I lose someone closer to me? I try to turn to God but I feel so disengaged from the Lord right now.
Just this morning I began on online Bible study with Living Proof Ministries (Beth Moore) in hopes of finding my way back to the Lord. For whatever reason, I am on this journey alone. I find no comfort in friends and try very hard to hide all this from my family. I could talk to my husband and he would do his best to understand but he already has so many things to think about. I don't want to burden him with this too - I know God is there, though.
I find no comfort in my church - I'm not really happy there but it is where we attend as a family. I love our pastor and his family - he truly is a man of God and delivers a good message. But, other than the message each Sunday, our church is lifeless - the music is dull - the service is predictable, unchanging, every little thing in the same order as the week before, the year before. The "amens" have to be coaxed out of the congregation and no one would dare shout out a "halleluia." Same old fundraisers - even the same old food at the after church meals we sometimes have. The truth is, I'm bored out of my mind and would love to go to a different church but that won't happen - Frank is too deeply rooted in this one. I just don't like to have to drag myself there every Sunday morning.
So, I am in high hopes of good things to come from this Bible study. I am happy to be home for the summer. The rest feels good and not having to think about too much is great too. Right now, I'm just letting God be God and do what He does best - lead me, guide me and love me. I know it'll all turn out ok.

Wow - How long has it been???

I can not believe that I have not blogged since January of this year. What was I thinking?? I mean, it's not like life stopped - stuff has been happening - sometimes it was BIG stuff.

Let me see . . .

February - Frank and I celebrated 11 years of marriage. What a blessing! He is the most wonderful husband in the world. God really gave me the best - which is what He promised.

March - Frank, Jacob and I went to Charleston (my favorite city in the world) for spring break. It was such a nice trip. It wasn't too hot and it wasn't too cool. Just right for walking around and enjoying the city.

April - Easter is always a special time for me. I love Easter, I think, most of all. I love to celebrate the resurrection of Jesus. I just am always in awe of the great gift He gave me when He went to that cross. On this earth, I will never be able to fathom it. But, when I see Him face to face . . . wow, what a day that will be.

May - celebrated Mother's Day - another favorite - and my birthday. I love birthdays and the whole getting older thing doesn't bother me a bit. I count each of them as a trophy. Just more time that God has granted me on earth with my family to enjoy until He comes to take me home.
Also, schools out for the summer - yay!!

June - Jacob and I really take advantage of the whole idea of summer vacation. We have done almost nothing. We sleep late - eat when we want to and play the rest of the time.

July - Frank, Jacob and I went to Myrtle Beach and then a quick trip through Charleston. It was a great trip - but there was a terrible cloud of sadness over the trip. As we were travelling to MB, I recieved word that a very dear friend was killed in a motorcycle accident. I may want to write more later - but that's all I want to say about that for now.
Alex went to Kigali, Rwanda, Africa for his first mission trip - a very long 10 days for those of us at home. Praise the Lord, he had a good trip and made it safely home.

August - Summer is dwindling to an end. It's back to school on the 10th. It's way too early - but the school board didn't call me to ask my opinion. Personally, I don't think it should be legal to send kids to school when it's so hot outside. I think the Monday after Labor Day is plenty soon enough.

So, there it is - the highlights for the last few months. Some big stuff - some no so big stuff. And, I'm sure that I'll think of more. Maybe I should blog more often and then I wouldn't forget. Or, maybe I haven't been blogging so I will forget - who really knows?

Resurrection 2009

Sometimes God places us in situations just so we can see His power at work. Well, this past weekend was one of those times for me. Frank, Jacob and I went along with our church youth group to Gatlinburg, TN for Resurrection 2009 (a Methodist Youth Retreat). It was our first trip to Resurrection and I wasn't sure what to expect. I had heard some amazing stories, but I still couldn't quite grasp the whole concept. I admit, that when Frank first volunteered us to go, I was more than a little apprehensive. But, as time to go grew closer, I began to get excited about it. By the time we left I was really looking forward to it. Somewhere down deep in my heart, I knew I was going to meet God there. And oh boy, did He ever show up. I can not remember a more amazing time with the Lord. He showed up in full force. His presence was so clear. I'm still reeling from it. And Jacob loved it. He hung on every word. He danced with the band and just "got it." I mean he really "got it."
We had four sessions over the weekend. We started with one session on Friday night shortly after we arrived, Saturday morning and afternoon and a wonderful session Sunday morning complete with Communion. Our youth participated in the serving of Communion. I am so blessed and so touched to have received communion from these amazing kids.
The kids were great - no problems at all. Of course, I think they are a great group of kids regardless. I just love'em all. Of course, I have to tell this . . . us girls had a hard time going into the boys' rooms for our nightly devotions. Those rooms smelled awful! There was a grotesque combined smell of feet and "other body functions" that would knock us down at the door. But, a little Febreeze helped. Needless to say that after devotions, us girls hightailed it back to our sweet smelling girl rooms.
Anyway, the music was awesome. This band was on stage at every session and the kids went wild. They rushed the stage, they danced, they sang and they truly praised the Lord.
The main speaker was phenomenal. I admit, I had never heard of this guy before, but he really hit home. And, he spoke in such a manner that the kids just got it. Not to mention that he was hilarious in the process.
I just can't seem to find the words to describe exactly what I brought back with me. There were (literally) thousands of kids there - all of them hanging on the Word of God, praising Him, Glorifying Him - it was one of the most awe inspiring events I've ever been a part of.
Now, heres the trick - it's our responsibility to "keep the fires burning" in our kids. I'm not sure how that will happen, but I am sure that with God in charge it will be done.
So, will we go again to Resurrection - you bet. Jacob asked me Sunday morning, even before we had left Gatlinburg, if we could come back next year. Of course we will. I have a feeling that this is just the beginning of many Resurrection weekends to come.
I wish I had some pictures to share, but I left my camera at home. Yeah, I know. That won't happen again. Next year, I'll have lots of pictures and lots more blessings to share.
If you are curious about Resurrection you can visit this site and learn all about it. You can also find out how to register your youth to attend Resurrection 2010 which is the 25th anniversary. I highly recommend it.
I pray that you are as blessed as I am.

Happy New Year!!

May 2009 bring many blessings, much prosperity, and peace beyond understanding.
God bless and keep you in everything you do.
Let's make 2009 a year for Jesus!

In Christ,
Lisa

Looking Forward to a Wonderful New Year!!

Wow - I can not believe that three months has gone by since I last posted on this blog. Oh, well, not much I can do to change that now - so, I move forward.

Tomorrow is New Year's Eve. 2009 is just a few hours away. I must admit, thankfully to our gracious Lord, 2008 was rather uneventful. I like uneventful. Turmoil and dissention upset me terribly. Nothin' I hate more than for my nice peaceful boat to get rocked.
I am looking forward to this new year. I have thoughtfully planned my resolutions for this year. They are as follows:
1st goal - I'm not calling them resolutions. They are goals. I have set myself a few goals for this year. And, I am humbly asking for any and all assistance that anyone would like to give.
2nd goal - I am joining Beth Moore and the LPM team in memorizing scripture this year. BM has asked anyone who wants to join in to memorize two scriptures per month - we check in with each other on the 1st and 15th of each month. How great is that. By the end of the year we will have memorized at least 24 scripture.
3rd goal - Since I have been chosen as Sunday School Superintendent for 2009, I have decided to take this job very seriously and put forth all my effort to help build up our SS program at our church. Our pastor has proclaimed 2009 as a "Year of Evangelism" at our church - so our efforts should go hand in hand. The main here is Glory to God!!!
4th goal - I have got to (GOT TO) stop smoking. That's all I'm going to say about that for now.
5th goal - To be more faithful in my blogging.

So, for now, these are the goals for my new year. I'm looking forward to input from you. But, please be kind or at least be tactful.

God bless you with a terrific 2009. May all of His blessings be yours.

See you soon.

A Month Later and a Few Questions

I'm loving my job. Praise to the Lord for placing me in a great school with great people to work with. I stay very, very busy though. I don't mind.
The last month (since my last post)has been filled with all kinds of things going on. I won't go into a lot of them but those particular incidents have opened up a few questions.
Question #1 - At what point in life does one pass from "Miss" to "Ma'am"? Standing in line at WalMart the other day a fellow behind me says, "Excuse me, Miss." Naturally, I turned around and moved to the side to let him pass. Much to my chagrin, he was not talking to me.
Question #2 - Why is that kids can sit through episode after episode of SpongeBob and Drake and Josh and then watch the reruns of the same episodes but complain when we parents want to watch five minutes of the election coverage?
Question #3 - Why can't that one dirty glass appear in the sink before the dishes are done?
Question #4 - Where do the sock mates really go?
These are just a few things I've been wondering. You can even say that some recent personal events have triggered these questions. I would love to hear some ideas on these important issues.

Very Brief Update

The last month or so has been a roller coaster ride for me. I can't remember all the tiny little details but here's the nutshell version.

August 1 - We went to Dollywood for the day. It was a wonderful day and we were absolutely tuckered out when we got home.

August 2 - Back at home, randomly checking voice mail on the home phone gave me a devastating shock. A message from the school board office informed me that I had been transferred to a different school. There was no explanation just the transfer orders. I called my principal to find out what was going on. She informed me it was a mistake and I should report to my regular job on Monday.

August 4 - First day of school. Went to work at regular school as usual. At about 10:00 a.m. Principal informs me that I have indeed been transferred. Again, devastation and many tears, though not actually in front of anyone.

August 5 - No school today (don't know the logic in that) but I went to see my Mom. Needing comfort in regards to my current job status.

August 6 - Report to new school - 15 miles away from my boy who is still at other school. Right off, I don't like it. Although, the people are very nice and the new Principal tries very hard to make the transition easier.

I stayed at the new school for the first three weeks of school. I did my job to the best of my ability. I was heartbroken that I was not actually placed in a classroom, but I still worked hard. I heard of another position in another school, right across the street from my old school. So, I applied and waited. The new position is a step up from my old position and is in the middle school. While I waited for a decision to be made, I continued to work at new school. I began to get very discouraged but kept trying to praise my way through it. All during this time, I knew that God was (and is) in control. Never once did I doubt that He had a plan. The discouragement that I was feeling was from the fact that I don't wait very well. Learning about that one.
Finally, I got word that the position was mine, but the school board was not filling the position until the yearly budget was submitted and passed. So, again, I waited and watched the papers for confirmation that the budget had passed. Finally, the morning papers flashed a headline that the budget had been submitted but rejected. It had to be submitted again. I thought I would scream - but I kept praising God and relying on Him to put me where He wanted me.

So, finally, He gave me the new position. I am now in the 5th grade at the middle school and I LOVE IT. I can take Jacob to school with me in the mornings and a friend picks him up to take him across the street to his school.
The people I work with are great. I'm enjoying all the work (even though it can be hectic at times). It's great!!

So,what did I learn from all this - not much. What did I take from all this - The wonderful, joyous confirmation that My Lord is with me all the time. That He holds me in His hands. That I am precious in His sight and He has great and wonderful plans for me. That I am loved, unconditionally.

Now, I love to tell the story of my transfer because I can tell how the Lord brought me through it. I love to tell others how faithful God is and that I am living proof of His love.

What more could a girl want?

Random Thoughts

This is some of the thoughts that keep floating through my head. I thought if I wrote them down, maybe I could clear my mind.

This past week or so has been a little melancholy for me. Last week, after we returned from vacation, I had to go to Virginia for my Aunt Katherine's funeral. My nickname for Aunt Katherine is "Flossy." Only I am allowed to use it.
Anyway, after I came home from the funeral, I've felt kind of down and out. Yet, I still rejoice in knowing that Flossy is with Jesus and someday, so will I.

We go back to school next Monday, August 4th. Yes, the 4th!!! I'm looking forward to working again - I really miss my paychecks. But, August 4th is ridiculously early.

My seven year old son is obsessed with Jamie Lynn Spears - oh, woe is me!!! Why couldn't he be obsessed with one of those little starlets that has NOT been in the headlines for having a baby at age 16?? Of course, he is only seven and all he sees is the "Zoey 101" show on Nick.
Dear Lord, please don't let this be a glimpse into the future of my son. Amen.

A sweet little lady in our church died Sunday after a long battle with cancer. I wish I had known her better.

My parents are on vacation in Shipshewana, Indiana. It's an Amish community. I looked it up on the internet and it looks lovely. Wish I was with them.

My dream vacation would be a complete tour of all the Civil War sights in the state of Virginia.

I've always wanted to write and publish a book. I'm still praying for the talent to do so.

I spend too much money.

My cousin's son is getting married this weekend in San Antonio, Texas. I would love to go. It would be great to go to the wedding on Saturday, then visit John Hagee's church on Sunday.
But, since we have to go back to school on Monday, it's not possible for me to go.

I should take better care of myself.

OK - I have wallowed in my own muddy thoughts long enough. I feel better. Thanks for your support!

We're Back

We're back from vacation. Had a wonderful time. Didn't want to come home! We started out in Charleston. It's such a beautiful place. I adore Southern history. I especially love to see places where "The War of Northern Agression" took place.
I would love to see Charleston during a time of the year when it's not 500 DEGREES IN THE SHADE. Maybe late fall.


Of course, as usual, I was in the middle of saying something.

Then we moved on to the beach. Love the beach. Don't care for the ocean. Love the beach. As a rule, I don't go into the water above my knees. Frank and Jacob, on the other hand have a crazy desire to stand NECK DEEP in the water. I do not, and never will, share that desire. Guess I've seen too many shark movies. The pool is another story - love the pool. We had a waterpark at our resort too. That was a lot of fun.





See what I mean?


Jacob really enjoyed digging in the sand. Don't even know what he was doing in this one.



It was a really fun week. Did not want to come home. Oh, said that already.
Well, there's a little glimpse into our vacation. It was a wonderful week. Actually, I don't remember being that relaxed in a long time. Did I mention that I really wasn't ready to come home?
Anyhoo - now that I am home - guess it's back to the same old stuff. I'll treasure the memories of that wonderfully relaxed week.(Sigh)
Blessings!!

True Freedom

A quick post for now - more later.

I'm sitting here watching the local 4th of July parade on television. We are not patriotic enough to actually go downtown and sit in the heat - especially since we can see it so much better here at home in air conditioned comfort.
But, as I sit here watching and listening to the comments from the news people, I again realize the sad state of our country.
Our nation has placed its faith in the human abilities of the military to maintain our freedom. But, the pursuit of True Freedom in Christ has been tossed to the wayside. For those of us who have True Freedom in Christ, we understand the importance of keeping Christ first. We know that accepting Christ as Savior and having a personal relationship with Him is the only TRUE Freedom we can ever have. Freddom in Christ can never be taken away. It doesn't have to continuiously be fought for - once it is received, it is forever.
My heart breaks for our nation. I grieve the fact that Christ is not welcome in so many places and in so many hearts.
So, my prayer, especially on this day is for our nation. I pray that across the US, people will come to realize that the only True Freedom is in Christ. I will continue to pray for our military and the freedom they fight for. But, without Freedom in Christ, there will never be complete freedom in these United States.

Whew! What a week . . . and it's only Wednesday!

I'm pooped!! This has been a very busy week and it's only Wednesday. I'm needing me a little Beth Moore about right now!
Here's the scoop.

VBS was a lot of fun. We had 20 children (good number for us) and the youth (well, six of them) were on had to help out. They are an amazing group of teens. They are loving the Lord with all thier hearts.
The kiddoes made some really awesome t-shirts in craft class. They memorized two memory verses and could repeat the stories almost verbatim.
The music was a hit, too. We used the VBS kit from LifeWay, Outrigger Island (incase anyone might recognize it). They loved the songs. We practiced as much as a one day VBS would allow. Then on Sunday, all the kids wanted to perform thier songs (complete with sign language) for the church. It was so wonderful. God was truly present in VBS.
Yeah, our church is small but we are big in the LORD!!
After VBS, we headed to a local swimming pool to celebrate my niece, Jane Ann's 3rd birthday. It was hot, but the kiddoes had a blast. And thankfully, pizza was served, so I didn't have to worry about dinner.

Sunday, after church, we took Aunt Sharon (aka, Nena) out to lunch for her birthday last week. We started at our favorite italian restaurant here in town. After waiting for one hour to be seated - yes to be seated - we moved to Chili's across the street.
We were seated upon entering and had our food within twenty minutes of pulling into the parking lot. Guess we should have started there.
Then it was home for a much needed Sunday afternoon nap while the guys went to the farm to check on the bull.

Monday, started out as a usual Monday - dishes, laundry, picking up stuff around the house - you know the drill. Then my Mom called from Virginia (about 35 miles away) to tell me that my Great Aunt Katherine is in the hospital and is not expected to live. So, I take Jacob to stay with Dad while Mom and I go to the hospital. Aunt Katherine is in really bad shape. She is full of fluid, her organs are giving out and she can hardly breathe.
We were there until about 10:00 p.m.

On Tuesday, my Aunt Gloria and I drove 200 miles up into Virginia to pick up my Great Aunt Etta, Aunt Katherine's sister. She wanted to be with Aunt Katherine and can no longer drive. So, over 400 miles in a car was tiring but we really had a good time with Aunt Etta. She told us tales about my mom and her siblings when they were young. She also told me some things about my grandfather whom I never knew because he died when I was four months old. It was so nice.
Then, we went back to the hospital to find that Aunt Katherine has been moved from ICU to a private room so the family can be with her. And, much to our amazement, she was awake and breathing somewhat easier. She even perked up enough to recognize each one of us. Then, oh my goodness, then, she told everyone to close our eyes and she prayed a prayer of thanks over all of us there in the room. Talk about feeling the presence of God.

Today, again, it started out like any other day . . . until my husband called to tell me that my step-daughter, Amanda was on her way to the emergency room. She was scheduled to have her gall bladder removed in two weeks, but she is in so much pain they are going to take it out tomorrow morning. So, Jacob, Andy (Amanda's husband), Robin (Amanda's Mom) and I sat in the ER waiting room for six hours while they did some tests and tried to find a room for her.

Like I said - I'm pooped. But, I'll sleep a while tonight and start again tomorrow.
Next week - IF all goes well, I will be preparing for our vacation. I am READY. I can hardly wait to hit that beach and just chill out for a few days. Mmmmm, I can almost smell that ocean air. I might even visit the spa and get myself a massage. I have never had a massage. I have always wanted one but just haven't taken the time. I love to have my back rubbed but that doesn't happen much around here. Oh, Frank is willing - he's just no good at it. I don't get it either. How can such a big strong man have such a soft touch? I like a deep back rub. I want to feel it to the bone. But, when Frank rubs my back, I can barely feel it. It just doesn't make any sense.
Oh well, it gives me something to look forward to.

So, for now, I'm going to rest. See you later.
Blessings!

A big weekend

Tomorrow is going to be a very big day. Our little country church is having a one day Vacation Bible School. We begin at 10:00 and will end somewhere around 3:00. Afterwards we will have a picnic to celebrate. Since our church is so small - we will be lucky to have about 20 kids attending. I know it sounds very small in comparison to other churches - but even with our small numbers - our love for God is BIG!!
My job will be to direct the music. Which is completely hilarious to those who know me. I can't sing!!!! Oh, I love to try - but even my son tells me that he would rather listen to the radio.
So, tonight, my darling Frank brought a projector from his office for me to use with my laptop to project the words to the songs onto a large screen. Isn't he brilliant?
So, (and the kiddoes will thank us) all I have to do is put in the CD and point to the verses. Oh, the joys of technology!!
One of the songs that we will be learning tomorrow is called "Jesus Is"
Not the one you hear on the radio all the time. This one is part of the VBS material that the VBS director purchased.
Anyway - I just fell in love with this song. I pray that the kids will like it too.

The chorus is as follows:
Jesus is Messiah
Jesus is my Savior
Jesus is the promise of our God
Jesus is amazing
Jesus is worth praising
Jesus is the only perfect love
And I'm so glad I know who He is
And I want the whole world to know
Who Jesus is.

Isn't that beautiful?
I'd love to sing a little bit of it for you - but, well, you can thank me later.

Blessings.

A Little on the Lonely Side

My little sweetie has gone to spend a few days with Granny and Papaw. Needless to say, it is a little quiet around here. Oh, I'm glad he loves to visit his grandparents. That is a very special time for them and I wouldn't take it away from them for anything. So, he can spend the next few days getting spoiled - having his way in everything - eating anything or nothing and having complete control of the remote. What more could a little boy want???
So, today after a visit to my doctor (blood pressure is still elevated), I spent the day window shopping. Well, I actually bought a few things - but mostly I just browsed. It was different - but nice.
I ran into a girlfriend from high school. I dearly love her and it was wonderful to see her and two of her four children.
A funny thing happened to me after I ran into my friend. Karrie has four children (the youngest is three) and is still a size six. I realized just how much I have neglected my health and the condition of my body. Now, I don't want to be a size six, I am much too tall for that (5'9") a size 10 is just fine with me. The problem is that I'm out of shape. Now, Karrie and her twin sister Kellie have always been very conscience of thier health. They have been very active and have always eaten a healthy diet. I have not!
So, I am on the road to a better body and a healthier lifestyle. It'll take a while but so far I'm enjoying it. I'm also hoping that it will help lower my blood pressure.
I guess it's just taken me a little longer to understand the consequences of what I do to my body. Oh, well, better late than never.

There's No "I" in Steward

This morning in church, Preacher really hit some nails right on the head. What an awesome service. Sometimes I just come out of there with my mouth hanging open. All the sermons are wonderful and truly God-inspired, but sometimes they hit a little closer to home.

The message today was taken fom Luke 10:25-37, The Parable of the Good Samaritan. The difference is that Preacher adapted this much taught parable to The Parable of the Good Steward.
After reading the scripture, Preacher asked us "What makes a good steward?" He explained that Stewardship is: Using God given abilities for taking care of God given resources for God ordained results. Powerful stuff!!
He then went on to explain that good stewardship really boils down to two things - our heart and our attitude.
At this point in the message, I was beginning to feel it pretty deep. I kept thinking and asking myself "What is my attitude?" Am I a good steward or do I just do things because I know I'm supposed to?" I think I was beginning to squirm a little bit in my seat.
Some of the things that kept going through my mind were, my house is a mess, there are dishes in the sink, laundry that needs to be done, etc. Then, it really began to sink in - Am I the best parent that I can be? Do I truly lead Jacob in the way of Christ? Do I pray over him constantly? Wow - that really began to hurt.

Then Preacher moved over to the Book of Malachi in the third chapter. This passage teaches on tithing. He asked us "Are you robbing God?" Oh, right in the gut!!!
Here is how it ties in to the passage in Luke.

In the Parable of the Good Samaritan we see three types of people.

1. The Robber - This attitude is: What is yours is mine and I'm going to take it.

2. The Levite/Pharisee - What's mine is mine and I'm going to keep it.

3. The Samaritan - What's mine is yours and I will gladly share it.

These three represent each of us as stewards to what God has graciously blessed us with. How do we handle it? Do we give with the right heart and attitude? Not just money but our time, our prayers, ourselves?
This one really gave me alot to think about. I have so much to consider. Am I robbing God by being a poor steward over the many blessings He has given me?

First thing in the morning - we start cleaning. Not just because I know it's the right thing to do but because I really feel in my heart that I want to be a good steward. Now, don't get the wrong idea - my flesh is screaming "no, don't make me, the mess really isn't that bad - this is summer vacation, chill out." But, my heart is saying, "oh, how nice the house will feel and look - not to mention how pleasing it will be to God that you obey Him." So, which one do you think I should follow - my flesh or my heart? I choose to follow my heart because that is where God is.

As for being a good steward over Jacob - well that will take more than a few days to ensure. I can get the house cleaned in a few days - but Jacob will require the rest of my life - and I gladly give it. After all, he is the greatest resource God has entrusted me with. Oh, it's an awesome responsibility but I'm up for the job. It should be a grand adventure.

On the Blog Again.

Well, for anyone who may be lurking out there - I did not fall off the face of the earth. Although, there were a few times over the past few weeks that I would have gladly jumped.
So much has been going on.

The last two weeks of school was jam-packed with activities. I went on four field trips in five days (with a pounding headache that would not go away). I was scheduled to go on one more but my blood pressure hit the roof so Dr. Principal sent me home instead. Thank the Good Lord she did. I went to my doctor to try to get something (anything) that would get rid of that blasted headache and discovered that I am in stage 1 of hypertension. The doc can't seem to connect the "why" dots to tell me that one particular thing or another actually caused this condition. A great deal of it is heredity. (Thanks Mom, lol) Nah, there are several factors. No matter what the cause, I have to deal with it now. Good news is that the headache if gone. The BP is still high. It's going down, but still not low enough.
So, the last day of school was Friday, May 23rd. Jacob and I have been resting - alot - this week. I have done very little this week. Doctor's orders. I've also been trying to watch what I eat - stay away from caffeine - stay away from sodas (oh, my beloved Pepsi) - and get plenty of rest. I have been instructed to begin some kind of regular exercise. I love to walk but even that can get boring. I wish we lived in a place where Jacob and I could ride bikes without having to haul them somewhere to do so. The road we live on is much too busy.
Oh,well. We'll do something. Maybe I'll get us a badmitton set. That would be fun.
I'm looking forward to a fun and happy summer.

My first year at the elementary school was great. I worked with some wonderful people. Having great people to work with sure makes going to work every day a lot easier. I count all my new friends as blessings. God is truly good!
My prayer is that each one has a wonderful, safe and fun summer. I'll look forward to seeing them in the fall.

Just Thoughts

I just read my cousin Selina's blog entry for this week. Her post made me think about a few things. You can read her blog here.

Our kiddoes at school have been in state testing this week. It is a very stressful time for teachers and students. But, praise the Lord, it is over until next spring. The kids can relax and tomorrow they get to relax, have a day of celebration complete with snacks (provided by the teachers) and a good movie to end the week. They have worked very hard and deserve a day to chill.
During the testing, we are not allowed to help them in any way. We aren't allowed to talk to them and we aren't supposed to move around the classroom. So, I found it a great time to catch up on some Bible study. I receive "In Touch" magazine each month (from Dr. Charles Stanley). It has some awesome articles and a daily study included. I just love it. And, it's free. If you are interested, simply go to this website and sign up.

Our school year is quickly coming to a close. Our last day is May 23rd. We have so many things going on in May that we really won't have that many learning days during that time.
Jacob and I are looking forward to our summer break. This will be my first summer in several years that I won't be babysitting. This summer is dedicated to me and Jacob. We are going to just hang out - go to the park - swim - visit the zoo - what ever we think might be fun.
I'm just looking forward to having some time with my son.
Makes me aware of how God feels about me. I'm sure there are too many days that I gety caught up in busy-ness of the day and God says that He is looking forward to having some time with me. On most days, I squeeze in time when I can - pray throughout the day and end up with a slightly empty feeling. Which is why my number one goal for this summer is to have real quality time each morning with my Lord. Everything else will have to wait - the house, laundry, etc. All that will still be there but I am going to have my morning coffee with God. I can hardly wait. For now, I'll keep squeezing out those precious moments every chance I get.

Character Counts

This week, my good friend, Vickie asked me to write a character letter for her. She needed a few letters to let the judge in her upcoming hearing know what a good person and upstanding citizen she is.
Here's the nutshell version: a few weeks ago Vickie was on her way to work, it was a Friday. She was going along, happy and content, looking forward to her day and the upcoming weekend. Suddenly, the car in front of her stopped and she hit it with her car. No one was hurt, but the police were called. While the officer took all the info from the other drive, Vickie waited in her car and drank part of a Mt. Dew (that was all she had to eat or drink at that point). When the officer asked her to step out, she felt dizzy and staggered a bit. The officer asked her if she had been drinking - at 7:30 AM - of course she said no.
Let me interject here, Vickie has never drank, never even as much as tried a cigarette, does not swear (never has). She is the Lay Leader in our church, the Sunday School superintendent, works with the youth, serves on various committees, takes care of her aging parents, goes to the mission fields once a year - the list is endless. She is an awesome person and love God!! That's why when she called to tell me this story - I laughed uncontrollably. I asked her three different times how long it took her to make up this story - she literally had to convince me that it really did happen. I mean - this is Vickie for pete's sake!!
Continue story - Vickie was still a little bit on the unsteady side so the police officer made her take a sobriety test - right there on the side of the street near her office. She did not pass - oh, she did the finger-to-your-nose part o.k. it was the heel-to-toe backwards part that tripped her up (no pun intended).
So, the officer hand-cuffed her and took her to the hospital for a blood test; then on to city jail for booking. Yep, mug shots, fingerprint, the whole ball of wax.
Vickie was mortified. She had to sit in a jail cell for three hours before her parents could bail her out.
So, now she had to appear in court with her attorney to try to straighten this mess out.
We have all had a fun time with it - Vickie has made fun of herself and has really taken the whole thing in stride.
So, when she asked me to write a letter of character for her, I was honored that she would ask me. I gladly wrote her a glowing letter, telling all the wonderful things about her that I could think of. I used lots of lovely words and phrases - I meant them all - but I wanted to be sure that whomever read the letter could know what I know about my friend.
Then, I began to think - what kind of character letter could be written about me? What if I needed a letter of character from God - what could He write about for me?
Would he say that I have been a "good and faithful servant?" Would he say that I am always there for His children? What would He write?
I'm afraid it would be a terribly short letter. So, this experience has made me ponder my character. I need to pay closer attention to the tiny, itsy-bitsy details - you know, the ones that really matter?
If God were to write a character letter for you - what would He write?

Easter 2008

Our Easter Sunday was a very pleasant one, indeed. We began our day with a wonderful church service about our Savior and what He did for us. Glory!!!! Immediately following the service, we had two baptisms - how great is that???
Then we drove 45 minutes to be with our family (my Mom's side) and to eat a most scrumptious meal prepared by some of the South's finest cooks. One thing we can do and do well in our family is cook (and eat). We love us some delicious ham and sweet potatoes, mashed potatoes,corn pudding, green beans, deviled eggs AND pickled eggs. Then we had banana pudding, lemon cheesecake and (my favorite) Dump Cake, hot out of the oven. O-mi-gosh is it wonderful!!! That's not all we had - just the best part!!
Now, on Daddy's side of the family, we cheated a little bit. You see, Daddy's sisters are not what you might call, uh, cooks. They just didn't take to it like Mom's sisters did. So, we all agreed to meet at this wonderful family style restaurant on Saturday to celebrate Easter together. The restaurant is a local favorite and is run by Mennonites. We sat at this huge table and were served our food as if we were at someones home. Big bowls of corn, beans, carrot souffle, cabbage, gravy, pickled green tomatoes, mashed potatoes, country ham, fried chicken and deep fried catfish. Yum-O!!

As you can tell, the last few days of life around here have been centered around a table full of food. 'Tis true! But, even though we have gathered with loved ones around these wonderful meals, the focus of our celebrations was not lost. We gave much thanks to our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ for His sacrifice and for His gift of salvation that none of us truly deserve.

So, my prayer for each of you is that you have enjoyed a joyous Easter which includes full bellies and even fuller spirits.

God bless you and let us celebrate Easter every day this year.

Conversation with a Fourth Grader

This is a conversation I had with one of my fourth graders this week.

In the hallway as the fourth grade was changing classes, Jay, a freckled face, red cheeked boy, walked up to me with a wide grin plastered across his face. I could tell he was bursting to tell me something. This is how it went. . .

Jay: "Hi, Mrs. B. Guess what."

Me: "Jay, I can't begin to guess, why don't you tell me?"

Jay: "Casey said she would go out with me."

Me(taken aback a bit): "She did? Well now, just where are you going?"

Jay(obviously perlexed) "What do you mean?"

Me: "Where will you two be going?"

Jay: "I don't know what you mean, but she said she would go out with me."

Me: "I understand that, but you haven't told me where you will be going."

Jay: "Nowhere."

Me: "Oh, then how will you be going out if you aren't actually going anywhere?"

Jay: "We are just going out."

Me: "Right, but where will you be going?"

Jay: "I told you, we are just going out."

Me: "So, you don't have a special place in mind?"

Jay: "A special place for what?"

Me: "To take Casey out."

Jay: "I'm not going to take her anywhere."

Me: "Then, how is that you will be going out if you aren't going to go somewhere?"

By this time, Jay was obviously confused and somewhat defused.

Jay: "Mrs. B, I don't know what you are talking about, but Casey is going out with me."

Me: "Jay, maybe you should explain that to me. If you aren't actually going to go somewhere, how can you possibly be going out?"

Jay: "We just are."

At this point, it was time to go to class. As he walked away, Jay sadly shook his head. Talking with another boy, he looked back at me and said . . .

Jay(to other boy) "I feel sorry for Mrs. B., she has never gone out with anybody."

Boy: "How do you know?"

Jay: "I was just talking to her and she doesn't even know what 'going out' means."

Boy: "Man, that's really sad."

Jay: "Yeah, I wonder if her husband knows?"

At this point, all I could do is return to my math class.

"Whatever you do for one of the least of these . . ."

I rejoice in the love of my Savior Jesus Christ yet my heart is heavy.
This burden on my heart is for the children I am blessed to work with each day at our school.
Here's the short version . . . our community is by no means a wealthy community. Our school is full of children with many needs. However, there are several children that have absolutely captured my heart and fill my prayers.
There are four children within our school - two are sisters, two are brother and sister and then there is the other boy. Three families living in one run down old house. 13 children in all living together. There is reason to believe the adults are into drugs and possibly prostitution. The kids come to school dirty, often smelling as if they have not had a bath in days. Thier clothes are pitiful and desperately needing to be washed. Several churches and other organizations in the area bought new clothes, shoes and coats for all the children at Christmas and provided groceries along with a special holiday meal. It is rumored that the shoes and coats were sold. There is no proof other than none of the children have been seen wearing any of the new items.
Authorities have been called - repeatedly. Reports have been filed - you name it - it's been done. But, no action has been taken. One of the kids came to school with still bleeding wounds from a bicycle wreck the day before - no one bothered to clean or bandage his wounds. His teacher did it - the next morning.
I desperately want to scoop these children up and bring them home with me. I want to give them a bath, dress them in decent clothes, give them a hearty meal and a clean bed. I want to love on them and let them know that someone really cares. But, I can't do that. So, I love on them as much as the law will allow while I'm in the classroom.
Now, those of you who have worked in the public school system much longer than I might have developed a tolerance for this type of situation. I beg you to let down your guard and let your heart ache for these kids. Love them like Jesus. Lift them up in prayer - intercede on thier behalf. If we, as children of God, do not, then who?
In Matthew 25:40, Jesus says, "I tell you the truth, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of mine, you did for me."
The law might limit what I can do physically for these children - but it can not limit how much I can pray for them.
Keep them in your prayers. An old song keeps going through my mind - some of you might remember it.
Bless the Beasts and the Children
For in this world
They have no voice
They have no choice.
Maybe they don't have a choice right now - but if they can begin to see the love of Jesus, then they will have choices they have never dreamed of.
Keep them in your prayers, siestas. Together, we can be thier voice.
God bless you.